our cuircumstance

for all those who cant conclude
for all those who dont know wat to do
those hearts divided in two
for those who just want a clue
follow ur heart and mind
but for how long? for how much time?
are you waiting for a sign?
will it lead u down the right line?
every path seems to scare us
we find new fears inside us
we find each other with in us.
we left each other inside us...
we have no stance
we have our chance
well be entranced
well have our dance
our hearts in harmony beat
every time our eyes they meet
u feel it dont u that strange heat
from the tip of the nose down to our feet
we dont know right from wrong
we dont know if this is our song
wat we do know is that this is were our hearts belong
that they are running ever so strong
and for these things holding us back
for the things we may have lacked
well but them all in one little stack
and hope that were on the right track
remember those nites u may not sleep
heres one truth u can always keep
theres some one out therein so deep
hes there helping you count ur sheep
he is there to help u not forget
not to turn, not to fret
not to worry, not to let
u feel so upset...
about wat we will conclude
about wat we will all do
no matter wat insues
no matter wat he'll love you.... <3

NO LOSS HERE

Withe nothing to lose,
But everything to give.
Only losing innocence,
and finding a reason within.
Why we ask questions,
only children know.
Why we need answers,
all put in a row.
But we keep it all in,
day by day and night by night.
Only to those who see it,
the rekindled flame of all.
Only to those who admire it,
evn when it dies and falls.
Finding a reason within,
innocent and clean?
some thing we have to give,
to lose nothing at all.

Ever since i started working here ive had a new way of seeing things. The youth center brings a new light into my world. These kids, how they live, what they go through...i see it and hear it. Im here to make a diffrence and along the way grow as a person. I took this "job", filmmaking and photography class, to teach these kids a new form of art....not just pretty drawings. They are the cutest things ever...they are really cool as well...but i teach all grades and as the age gets higher the more their innocnce is lost and for some reasone the more they dont care. I guess its becuause the lil ones are the curious, find out every thing new, look at me kind, While theolder ones know or dont care about things like that...i dont know all i do know is that the little ones like it and are eager.... check out the pictures they took, pretty good huh? lol ne way....im proud of them and what theyve done...enjoy....man to teach them is so uplifting...these kids need positive reinforcment and im glad im here to do it...i love em and their smiles and just how innocnt they are and happy obliviouse to the spinning world...i dont even think they know it spins ...w/e i leave you with this...."While we try to teach children all about life, they teach us what life is all about." : ) peec

Friday 3/16/07 : what started out as the most depressing day turned out to be one that could come out of a really good book. i planned a day at the beach w/ rachel for friday. little did i know of the threat that loomed near by.... i awakened to the gray skys thought to be only in legends...wow too dramatic (maybe jus a lil) any way.... i sorta paniked but thought this wont do crap so i woke my family and we got ready said the hell w/ the weathert and picked up rachel; i felt like a dork in front of rachels house...me in full beach attaire under gray skies and rain drops....like the song... i thought to my self, "i wonder what the workers and rachels mom think of mee..oh my god what and idiot ", but i didnt care we didnt care maybe a lil but not really. we went chuggin along, and after my mom gets lost and whatever, we make it to the beachthen the heavens open up and the sky graceess us with is royal blue. the day turned good. rachel, my siblings and i played soccer, got me really cold and doodled in rache's sketchy book. we were just plain lazy.after getting our skin made to look like the color of tomatoes....we departed and made our way home. we got a crazy idea to go to the movies, planA. or make a camp fire and watch the movie 23 at rachels house, planB. rachels mom was iffy about planA, so i got nervous, cus i really didnt want the day to end...but alls well that ends well and planB pulled through.so i got ready and went to her house. we made the camp fir upon my arriving and it was a gloriose sight. there was heat flash...which rachel looked at me funny cus she didnt know what the hell i was pointin at...she thought her cat was having a heat flash...funny huh? but yeah i met her workers. one plays huitar and another the banjo...amazing we jammed all night long...in front of the fire...pure bliss. me guitar another guitar a banjo everyone singing the fire the beautiful night sky and the presence of a beautiful girl by my side, lighted lovey by the flames light, her face glowing.....all night long...i tried to sleep, beleaving that if i did the moment would last forever, sounds crazy, i know, but this was all i ever wanted....

well, i saw 300 yeterday with rachel...gatta say, its really good. looks beatiful and no cheese whats so ever, not like ghost rider..blah. after the movie i felt like throwing a spear at something and yelling. so me and rachel ran down the movie stairs to feed this urge, heh. go see it, youll like it.sigh. twas a good day yesterday, very good day.